listening to the blower's daughter by damien rice..... absolutly love the sound .... his voice... the melody... its a sad song but its beautiful so you almost forget about its sadness ...not good at writing about things that are so sensory for me.....

also watched wonderboys ... good film ./ interesting for the writers camoflaging as bloggers......

sigh* been pmsing for 3 days before it even started ....dont thnk iv ever been so glad about my fucking period starting ...i thought maybe i was going psycho or menopausal at 22... was kinda creeped out in an irritated pmsy way ofcourse ...... now that its started im just pmsing normal. fucking periods. urgh*

the moon was yellow today and full ..... kinda beautiful in a throw-upy way ....not really ... it was quite cool .... im just pissy and pmsy...yea yea im not getting over it so whatever the fuck.... so yea .... have decided to restart the diary type writing thingy ...just cuz its fun and i get to ramble out crap which makes it double the funfun .... so yea im sleepy .... too much craziness in general .... iv been feeling imbalanced ...like my moons are not aligned or something that could make sense of how iv been feeling ...but yea thats what its been like .... sorta ....
i duno0o ....i dont even know if i have anything to say really .....

i just enjoy the feeling of words coming out of my head and the feeling of my fingers flying across these keys

Your Existing Situation
Working to create for herself a firm foundation on which to erect a secure, comfortable, and problem-free future, in which she will be granted respect and recognition.
Your Stress Sources
An existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory, but she feels unable to improve it without willing cooperation. Unwilling to expose her vulnerability and therefore considers it inadvisable to display affection or to be over-demonstrative. She regards the relationship as a depressing tie but, although she wants to be independent and unhampered, she does not want to risk losing anything. All this leads her to react touchily and with impatience, while the urge to 'get away from it all' results in considerable restlessness. The ability to concentrate may suffer.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to become emotionally involved as she feels rater isolated and alone. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense, though she tries to avoid open conflict.
Your Desired Objective
Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.
Your Actual Problem
Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.
Your Actual Problem #2
Anxiety and restless dissatisfaction, either with circumstances or with unfulfilled emotional requirements, have produced stress. She tries to escape by intense activity, directed either towards personal success or towards variety of experience.




Sinking, feeling Spin me around again And rub my eyes This can't be happening

Your score as a human being is 82.05.
You are close to ideal. So close, and yet so far. Amusing, really, to watch someone squirm so close to the vaunted ranks of perfection and still remain so very, very ordinary. It is all one can do to keep one's ingratiating smile from polluting one's perfect face.




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